Wednesday the 20th we went to Nashville for our routine visit. On the way, Peter and I were a little whiny. We are tired of driving to Nashville. As I type this I’m a little embarrassed by it. I think of those who wearily have set out time and time again for chemo treatments or hospital visits to Music City without complaining. I’m not them, but I look up to them. And maybe one day I’ll be more like those kind of people.
Regardless, we had a great visit. I guess God just knew what we needed that day. We went in and sweet Dawn was our ultra sound tech. Oh how I love Dawn. As Hadassah Joy flipped and flopped she laughed and joked with us about her nature. That is the best. Those of you who have patiently listened to me talk about Hadassah and smiled, thank you. It ministers to my heart so very much.
I timidly asked if they did 3D ultrasounds. Dawn said, usually, this late in the pregnancy, they don’t because the baby is growing so much they run out of room and can’t get very good images. I played it cool, but I was so disappointed. I really wanted to see a few, but even Peter and myself with our untrained eyes can see that it gets a bit harder to make out certain body parts as she’s grown. Some parts are easier to identify, like the kidneys, but the general overall “seeing” Haddie Joy, gets a bit harder each time.
As Dawn moved around the magic wand in the pile of gunk on my belly and measured I lay there without many expectations. Two weeks prior to this, our visit (which I failed to blog about) was a little of a let down. Our ultrasound technician, who was young and fresh out of school, voiced she thought Haddie Joy’s cystic hygroma looked smaller, which is something I had also thought, looking for myself. But, Dr. Collins wasn’t willing to go as far as saying that 4 weeks ago. When Dawn mentioned something to this effect we explained what Dr. Collins had said the visit prior and that it was probably Haddie Joy just “growing into it” rather than the hygroma actually shrinking. Instead we focused on enjoying sweet Haddie Joy. She shared with us that her long bones are still six weeks behind, but other than that we have a 5 lb little Hadassah Joy, with a normal sized abdomen and head. We had just about finished up when Dawn said, “Let’s see if we can get a few 4D’s.”
I was a little taken aback with surprise. She explained that we might not get good images because Haddie Joy was so far along, often times you get nothing but distortions. At this point I’m scared to say anything because I don’t want to distract Dawn from getting these 4D’s.
Then the fun started. Dawn saw her before we did and began exclaiming how cute she was, giggling, “ooh”-ing and “ah”-ing over her.
Then I saw her.
There she was wiggling, a little unsettled, until finally she rested her sweet cheek on her arm to sleep. This absolutely made Dawn go wild…okay, so she stayed pretty calm, but it was pretty darn cute.
I glanced over at Peter, who had suddenly come alive with amusement. He saw her too. I think we were both a little nervous until she explained a little more of what we were seeing. She was moving enough to distort the pictures, Dawn explained, so she had to work quickly to snap a few good ones.
We were elated. She is so perfect. A beautiful creation, made in the very image of God. I love that. I will post the pictures as soon as I can get them scanned as a file that will work with wordpress, we don’t have a scanner here at the house, so it takes a little time.
We then waited excitedly for Dr. Collins since we had beautiful new pictures to stare at. We didn’t have to wait long. He came in and shared with us some things he called “worthy of mention”. Haddie Joy doesn’t appear to have as much fluid on her heart as before. He also said her cystic hygroma was “less pronounced”. I think the “fresh out of school” technician we had last visit has a wonderful career ahead of her, don’t you?
This was very exciting obviously. He continued that he was encouraged to watch how, over time, she seems to be adapting to her set backs. Something is causing the problems though, and that is what keeps him from assuring us that her chances of survival have increased. Without knowing what is causing the problems, he just can’t say for sure. But he did say that there is a good chance she could live longer than what was originally expected. He is pretty up front with the fact that he just does not know, which we are totally okay with.
We talked more about plans for her arrival. The tentative plan is that I will be induced my 38th week, which is the second week of November. Probably on a Thursday (tentatively the 18th), since that is the day Dr. Collins is at the hospital.
We are naturally getting very excited and geared up for her sweet entrance. Well, to be completely honest, we are nervous. Please pray that we might rest in His peace and focus these next few weeks practicing the presence of Christ right where we are, not allowing the distractions of this world to choke out what He desires for us at this time. I am getting excited and frankly, I’m a little ADHD, not always a good combination! So pray that even in my excitement I might be able to relax enough to enjoy what God is doing so perfectly. Many of you are saying you are expecting a miracle. I am too. I still don’t know what form that will take place in, but it is surely going to happen. The choir used to sing a song with the lines, “He is good. All the time. All the time. He is good.” I’ve found myself singing that over and over. No matter what happens, God is good – all of the time, and nothing changes that.
Praise Him with me for doing unexpected things in Haddie Joy’s life. And believe Him for doing the same in yours! I love you all and thank you for your continued prayer support. Peter and I are always so blessed by it and I think the past months have been a blessing because of your thoughtful sacrifices to be used by God in such a powerful way.