After we shared our testimony at church a woman in the congregation sent me an e-mail with a link to a web-site. It was the blog of Angie Smith, wife of Todd Smith from the Christian group, Selah. I was so thankful as I read through her blog and was reminded that God can use anything and everything in our life for good.
Reading them helped me to grieve in some ways in which I hadn’t let myself. I decided to order her book, I Will Carry You and I’m so glad I did. As I’ve been reading I’ve come across a lot of practical preparation which may be necessary in the future and I hadn’t even thought of. I’ve been mindful of the children’s grieving processes, but honestly in a bit of a selfish way. Hearing how Todd and Angie comforted their children, although they were much younger than ours, gave me some ideas that are helping me be more in tune with their emotions as I try to balance between my own and guiding them through theirs, as well as just being there for them as they handle it all so differently.
At any rate I was in the church parking lot this morning, painting my toe nails. (I often do this since it’s when I’m getting dressed that I remember they need a fresh coat.) Everyone else was already heading inside. A sweet lady in the Lord came up to the window with a brightly colored gift bag in her hand. She said, “This might seem strange, but I wanted to give you something. Have you ever heard of Selah?”
Isn’t God good?
“Yes,” I replied in amazement, “I’m reading a blog written by one of the singer’s wives and I ordered the book and have been reading it too.”
“Do you have the CD?”
“No, I don’t”
She proceeded to tell me about a week before we shared at church she watched a special T.V. program in which the Smiths shared their story. After she heard ours she said she really felt led to get the CD for us.
I’ve been overwhelmed by the prayer support and kind words that we’ve received. This was no exception. I have felt so loved by God through His body of believers. I truly don’t understand how people go through tough situations apart from hoping in Christ. To think that God used this amazing lady to minister to little old me…..He just floors me over and over again. It is truly a miracle to know the One and Only True God as Lord of my life.
She left and I finished up my toe nails. I popped the CD in. The bonus track was written by Angie and Todd Smith during her pregnancy. The track wasn’t originally planned to be on the CD, but because a cord wasn’t plugged in correctly it was. And I listened. And I cried. And I thought about God. Angie and Todd’s story has been such a comfort to me during this difficult time. And now I sat listening to this beautiful song and thought it was a so-called mistake I was hearing it at all. It wasn’t even supposed to be on the CD. But I don’t believe that. Because I believe in the sovereignty of our Creator and King.
He knew what I would need before the foundations of the earth. He knew what Angie and Todd would need. He knows what you need.
I walked into church with a smile, it’s no wonder why. And I thoroughly enjoyed the sermon about how God is our friend. I think He had already proved that to me, don’t you?